Moonflower

The Moonflower

On the outside the moonflower possesses a certain sense of mystery to it.

It will not bloom during the day but only at night.

This holds a certain sense of wonder about it.

Even in the darkest of nights there still shines the beauty of this flower.

Its nice to know that even in our darkest of times there will still be this beauty that we can rely upon.

Its light and purity seem to shine so much greater when in the dark.

Because of it we no longer need to fear the darkness but instead feel comforted that such times yield something so dear and amazing to behold.

You are my moonflower. A never-ending beauty that saved me from the darkness.

Chains

They bind and confine
The cold emotionless links that keep the beast caged and
Restrain ones own will
The rattling steel shackles that hold us back and keep us imprisoned

These iron bonds constrict and grasp
Forcing us inside unbreaking armor keeping us bound
They are cruel and strong, creating a barrier of interlocking manacles
Preventing anyone from escape

We remain cuffed and contained
With no hope of freedom

We are chained

Random Thought

Just had a random thought...I know I just posted but still feel like I want to type this out before it fades.

Life has become boring and monotonous. I wake up each day, go to class, come back to my room and do nothing. Maybe Ill hang out with friends later on. I just feel like Im going through this life for nothing. I'd much rather drop out, find a simple job, and just go live near my cousins. Lead a simple life. I guess Im just getting tired of my life the way it is. Same shit, different day sorta thing. Im just waiting for that one thing to happen and just totally mess my life up, make it more interesting, make me look forward to waking up in the morning.

Lonely

So its getting closer and closer to my birthday, only 6 days left. Despite it being a fun time of year, I cant help dreading it. I will once again be spending my birthday alone, being single that is. I dont know why its so hard for me to meet a girl and start a relationship. I fairly normal as far as normal is concerned. Once in a relationship Im honest, caring, and dedicated...Maybe one day Ill meet someone who I can share these with.

On a positive note, Ill be seeing a lot of my cousins on my upcoming break from school. Wednesday before thanksgiving Ill be getting totally hammered with them, which is good cause I just need to escape reality for awhile. Then thursdays thanksgiving, friday is our black light party and saturday I get to drink with my friends. Again though, friday is gonna end up leaving me with a feeling of lonliness when I go home and have no one to be with. I guess Im simply looking for something more...

There is no greater pain in this world then that of loneliness. Physical pain is nothing compared to the mental anguish one feels when they are alone. These thoughts cross my mind as I sit here, alone in my room again on another weekend night. This new environment has been quite difficult for me to adjust to. I would have thought that I would have been able to make some friends, meet new people, maybe even find a girl to be with by now. But I still have not. Im so sick of being alone, both with the lack of friends and not being in a relationship